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I’m aware

And it’s like part of my brain

Just doesn’t care

Trauma

One part of my brain says

What is that

The other side of my brain says

That’s reality

That’s facts

One part of my brain says

Been there

Done that

Don’t care

Let’s just move on

The other part of my brain says

No

I want the darkness to continue to linger on

That part of the brain says

I want you to feel everything that I feel

And I want you to feel even more

Because right now

All there is

Is closed and locked doors

Sitting in a room

Dark

Quiet

Simplicity

Blank thoughts

Thoughts

Tragic

Travesty

I don’t understand this trauma

And why the tears fall

I’m here

I’m just no longer me

That part of me died

With the cells

That are no longer a part of me

Yesterday is somewhere out there

Lost

Lost in the abyss

All there is

Is today

Here

Somewhere

Standing alone

Asking trauma

To just move on

And to leave me alone

Trauma is a separate entity

By no means

Is trauma

A part of me

Sometimes the tears come flooding

At the oddest of times

Why does my mind play tricks

Where sometimes I can

And cannot rhyme

Why won’t the chronic pain just leave me alone

Why won’t the clumsiness just subside

I’m here

I’m alive

And wanting to thrive

But

Trauma

One part of my brain says

What is that

The other side of my brain says

That’s reality

That’s facts

Trauma is a separate entity

Trauma is not a part of me

No matter how it leaches onto me

I won’t accept it

I wont claim it

Because

Trauma

It’s just not me

Trauma is a separate entity.

(C) 2025 AeKyung Yoo