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I hate my life right now. I really hate it! I’m just going to be brutally honest. All of my therapists are working with me on acceptance and gratitude. However; I wake up brutally angry these days, and my brain acts like it’s got a mind of its own! It’s like it’s not only detached from the rest of me; but, that it’s so far broken! Lately, I’ve been having these outbursts that it seems like I have no control over. It feels like my life is in a never ending haze.

I’m so tired of my brain just shutting down mid-sentence, to where “uhm” seems to be classic. This is why I hate my life right now. My broken brain just won’t do what I want it to do and when I want it to. This isn’t me. This isn’t who I am. This was never who I was. I remember who I was before cancer, and it’s like my new broken brain just sets up a gazillion road blocks to where yesterday’s me can’t ever again be reached.

This is not the life I want to accept, and gratitude is a parallel!

I don’t think my writing can get anymore rawer than this! This is the reality in the #lifeafterchemo Everyday isn’t a happy and pretty story. Everyday isn’t about yoga and green smoothies. Everyday is the space in between.

(C) 2025 AeKyung Yoo