Blogging for a better life

I am having such a challenging time grappling with this life after cancer thing. While I’m overflowing with gratitude for my care team that exceeds beyond the medical care team, I am still torn on what’s permanent and what still alots patience. It’s a lot to have this time where my mind can sit for hours at a time staring off into yonder without realizing how much time has passed. The things I can and cannot remember is so frustrating. To may care team, they say that I’m still new in my healing; but for me, it’s extremely hard to comprehend how my healing journey fluctuates so much from day to day. Everyone says that healing isn’t linear. It’s difficult to understand that concept; when part of my mind pictures things like I got treated for a common cold, and then can’t understand all of these challenges and limitations.

I try not focus on the things I cannot do and try to remain in gratitude for the things I can do and for what I have in my life. Although, I’m human. I can be in the moment and slip out of the moment. Training your untamed mind is hard work. I feel like today is obviously an extremely bad grammar day. However; I promised that I’d be transparent and raw to my readers at the beginning of this journey. It’s been awhile since I’ve put anything out into the writing world. The time that you haven’t heard from me, I’ve been fighting severe exhaustion, getting iron infusions, and showing up for so many medical appointments with specialists. Everyone has been keeping a close eye, ensuring that nothing flies under the radar and that I can remain in remission and my healing journey continues.

In this writing, my brain is just flowing with thoughts with out any comprehension to reread. Comprehension and remembering what I’ve read or what someone has read to me hasn’t been the best lately. However; that doesn’t mean that emotions don’t need to be released. I saw a reel recently that was sharing about where every emotion is stored in your body. If these emotions aren’t released, they can actually wreak havoc. How important it is to find a healthy release.

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