Blogging for a better life

So many untapped thoughts, feelings, and emotions. However; unlike writer’s block that prevents a writer from writing, battling the traumas of post-chemo recovery not only has its physical tolls, but the cognitive tolls as well. Lately, I’ve been thinking about what my first posting should entail. I’ve also been thinking about how I should write the posting. Slightly self-conscious about how the words will come. Okay, quite a bit self-conscious as to how the words will come. However; my thoughts continue to remind me to just simply write.

As writers, we know there are drafts to be written prior to the final posting. When I think about this thought, I think and worry that it might be forever before my readers have the opportunity to read my first blog posting. Therefore; I’ve decided to just write without hesitations, without reservations, and without apologies in my errors. I’ve come to the conclusion, that if I’m to wait for the self confidence to come and for the self-consciousness to cease, from what only time can heal in my recovery from cancer…the inspiration I can share to others and the calmness in my spirit will only be prolonged.

Years ago, I thought to myself that everyone has a story to tell. However; oftentimes, we let our own insecurities hinder us from sharing our stories. When we hinder ourselves from sharing those stories, we hinder those around us and ourselves in a cleansing, healing, and growing power. This in turn leaves us stagnant within ourselves.

I’ve learned from a very young age, that there is therapy in writing. It assists with cleansing our souls, along with assisting us in making sense of the world we reside in. This goes from the world within us, as well as the world that surrounds us.

I have a feeling that a lot of my initial postings will be much to do with cancer. Since I still struggle with my mobility, it’s obvious that I’m not doing a lot of traveling. However; I have a lot that I can share about lifestyle! I’m hoping that as I write more about my personal cancer journey; not only will I bring hope and inspiration to others who are touched by cancer, but that I will gain more clarity, acceptance, and patience in my current limitations as I continue to focus on healing in all aspects of my life and on what I can do!

This brings me to my first bit of clarity learned over this past weekend. It might even have been the first time I shed a tear in solitude, regarding cancer in addition to my limitations. When sharing my vulnerability with another, they reminded me to continue to be patient with myself. However; it’s frustrating, when the very fundamentals of reading and writing can not only bring clarity, but peace and tranquility. But, reading and writing poses current challenges.

During post-chemo, I’m learning that chemo has brought on a strong lack of concentration and focus, it poses a challenge in remembering things. As I also learned over the weekend while attempting to journal for the first time in a very long time; apparently, it’s also difficult to properly place words in the correct order while writing. For lack of better words or thoughts, writing these days is almost like dyslexia. It’s a strain to not only find the words to the thoughts of knowing what is wanting to be said; but also, to actually formulate the words for the order of understanding. However I keep telling myself; that if I continue to forge through, eventually one day my mind will feel stronger again. I remind myself that all of the challenges are just enhanced areas that need practicing on.

In conclusion to this first posting; I think it’s safe to say or assume, that some of the future posts will come in forms of journal entries. I’m hoping that my readers will be able to follow and find strength in my story, as we continue to learn and grow together. I’m extremely open to my readers connecting with me on questions and topics that they’d like to read more on. Again, thank-you for joining me on this adventure!

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